"I'm going up to the mountains for Christmas.." It just sounded like you were going to contemplate your life.. Don't do it, JOHN. YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR.
My hometown is actually worse in my mind now. I thought it was boring and oppressive before. Now I think it is a suffocating, intolerant, utterly unattractive wasteland, and I dread every moment I am forced to return there.